On this day 18 years ago a brand new Christian was expecting to attend the annual church picnic followed that evening with a fireworks display celebrating our country’s independence. He had planned to have a pretty blond haired, blue eyed girl by his side for what would have been their first time not in a group setting. Due to illness Karen was not to be with me 18 years ago, just as it was not for her to be by my side today.

I don’t know why completely, but I know God has a reason Karen isn’t by my side right now and though I miss her deeply I’m completely at peace now being a widower. Writing the last posting was such a release for me. I was going to post it but it is nearly 40 pages and I need to spend some time culling that down to a more realistic amount of information. There is so much I want to say about those last days, so many lessons’ I’ve learned, so many displays of God’s hand. At the same time I don’t want to put people to sleep!

I’ve decided it is better to spend a little more time reducing the content and ask you to continue praying as I spend the next week editing the information.

Over the past 2 plus years and especially this past month, God has shown me many reasons for our family’s journey with cancer. Yes there is a reason! No, I don't believe we were randomly hit with the cancer stick. No, I don't believe my family is being unfairly treated by God nor do I believe that God allowed the events of the last few years because we sinned in some specific way. No, if it were up to me I would not have chosen this course for my family. Yes despite the pain, loneliness and sorrow ... There is a reason.

I hope you enjoy the video and song in the clip below as much as I did and remember as Christians seeking Him nothing comes into our life that hasn’t passed His hand first.

Until next week . . .